Take Two
Sometimes love comes back around a second time. If that happens, usually thats because the passion and love is so strong that you can iron out all the kinks and move on to pure love. But there are those times when love comes back to your door knocking and you shouldn’t have answered. Why do you answer? Why not? People… MOST people change, evolve… GROW!!! That’s if they are under the age of 35 years old. Trying to get a drastic change out of a man who is over 35 years old and set in his ways is like trying to draw blood from a rock! BUT… sometimes, sometimes a man can change over crazy circumstances. They usually don’t have anything to do with the woman, but nonetheless a change occurs. It may not be specific to what you were looking for, but it helps. You can almost over look the other annoying habits and habitual mistakes and blunders. The change is usually significant enough to get their foot back in the door for a talk or dinner. If it’s been years since you have communicated with one another… this change can get them a few dinners and conversations. The real test comes three months into this revisited/newfound love when you realized the asshole has not changed a bit and he is just as blind to his major issues as he was when you were together the first time.
So, why did I do the sequel? I always try to look for the good in people. Keep my distance from the bitter bug that lingers over every woman’s head. I believe in love and love believes in me… really though, love?? How you gonna do me like that, love?? I thought we was cool??
It’s sooo frustrating because all the things that bring you close to a person just aren’t enough at the end of the day. The good is soooooo good and then the bad makes me wanna go out and kill him!! The good in him doesn’t out weigh the bad… which doesn’t make HIM bad… it makes him bad for me!! But then I look at my “perfect dude” list and I wonder if he really exists. How many of those things can I wait for? How many of those things do I really need?? Will I ever find someone with all those qualities or am I being naive and romantic? Did I just walk away from what was meant to be for the second time??
I want to believe that MY dude is out there waiting for me to walk into his life… I have to believe…
